Arguing With God

Is it ok to argue with God? I sure hope so, because I've been arguing with Him for a long time.

I remember the first time I tried to get out of something. I was working with the severely mentally ill in the community. I'd taken one to see his doctor. Sitting in this crowded waiting room, I saw a woman seating in front of me. Soon as I saw her, I heard God say, "Go tell her I love her." Now, I was not quite as confident as I am now. So my first reaction was, "I don't think so."

I heard Him again. "Go tell her I love her." "I don't know her, I don't want to.." Then in a very strong & forceful voice, God said, "GO TELL HER I LOVE HER!" Up I went.

I was quite timid about going to her. She had her body turned to the side so you could not see her face & she was hunched over. I wasn't real fast about getting there, hoping that her name would be called to see the doctor. I sat down beside her & touched her hand. She turned to look at me with swollen red eyes. The tears were stilling flowing down her face.

I said, "I don't know you, but, God said to tell you He loves you." She gasp & then smiled. "I am a Christian & I was thinking about killing myself. I have felt so alone." I was rather dumb struck at this point. Still a baby in Christ, my wisdom & revelation were in short supply. She thanked me & said that she would be alright now.

A prophet told me not long ago, that God likes it that I argue with Him. This would be a good thing for me, because, I still argue with Him. God has a sense of humor, I've seen it at work. Maybe, He enjoys watching me squirm for a bit. He knows he is going to win. My arguing with the Creator of the Universe is rather futile. He always wins.

My biggest argument has been over my future. He showed me a bit of it & I recoiled. What I saw was not anything I would want in my life. Why would He show me His plan for me, knowing that I would run from it. I believe it was to prepare me & for me to come into a place of acceptance. I'm still running a bit. Satan comes to me & tries to get me to believe that I have made these things up in my head. But, I know the voice of God & I know what I saw in the vision. It would be easier for me to fallen into the trap the Satan continues to try on me, Much easier than following the plans God has laid out for me. But, I will keep my eyes were they belong, catch every thought to the obedience of God & move toward that goal.

Hope

I met with a woman yesterday, in an emergency counseling session. A friend brought her to me, but our pastor had told them both to seek me out. She was going through with drawls from alcohol and had the shakes bad. She sat in my rocking chair, curled up in a ball.

When asked if she was a Christian, her response was "I don't know."

Hard for me to do Christian counseling with someone who is not a Christian. But, on further questioning I found that she does believe that Jesus Christ is the risen Savior, she has just never been churched. She has no idea what the Bible says and no idea about spiritual things.

I had to watch my tongue around her. Wanting to bring in the supernatural. I thought it would scare her off. But, it was hard and I slipped now and then. She is a woman driven by generational curses. She calms the demonic by drinking. The thoughts she hears are suicidal.

Knowing that Jesus is the risen Savior is just not enough and I needed to teach her enough so that she could make it through the week. So, much to know and so little time.

So, I shared with her that Christianity was not about a group of people. I told her about Enoch and his relationship with God. That this was Christianity. That her relationship with God would be one that is intimacy with God. One on One. This surprised her, but she seemed to understand.

I told her to personalize the Bible and to read the book of John. This she did not understand, so I read a bit of Psalms 91, using her name where it read "I". She like that a lot, but had trouble even understanding the NIV.

I reached for a Bible translation called "The Answer". I, again, read Psalms 91 and she understood. So, I gave her my bible.

Supernaturally, she is covered in demons. They hover over her with an assignment to kill her. When I look at them, it actually looks like one is chewing on her brain. Knawing away her life. God has protected her from death and I prayed more protection over her. Her healing will take time. She is not versed or submerged in the Word of God. She is not spiritual. Does not understand the supernatural. I can not just jump into an inner healing nor a deliverance. She needs to believe. But, she found hope.

I talked to her about her thought life and catching every thought to the obedience of God. Told her to read Psalms 91 and the Book of John. She called me last night to ask some questions and told me she had read Psalms and had personalized it. Her with drawls were bad, but she was hanging in there. I advised her to see her doctor today to get some help with the with drawls.

Where will this end up. I do not know, but I, like her, have hope. She believes in miracles and I told her that she will be a miracle. I pray that the things I said to her hold her in hope. She is in torment and that always breaks my heart. I can not wait to see those demons gone and freedom brought to this child of God.

Virginia

Her name is Virginia. She takes walks in the evening. She is 81 years of age, but looks, at the most 60. On her walks, she use to see my mother sitting on the porch and come up and talk to her. Yesterday, she came up to talk to me.

She ask me, "is your mother gone?"

We spoke of my mother and her death. She was sorry. Virginia is a kind woman. Her heart is always wide open and her spirit is sweet.

Once, she decided to take my mother for a walk. I told her that this may not work out. But, Virginia was determined that my mother needed exercise. So, off they went. They made it one house down from mine and then they turned around and came back. Virginia's comment. "We'll go again next time." She would sit for hours with my mother.

So, yesterday, we sat and talked. It was nice. Her concern and love radiated from her. She shared about her life and children. I was relaxed and enjoying the conversation.

Then she asked if I knew Valerie down around the corner. "Yes, I know her". "Well, she is not home and I have this magazine for her. Do you want it?" She asked.

I looked at the magazine in her hand and then looked up to her face. "Yes. I am a Jehovah Witness." She said. I was stumped. Never would I have expected this one. "Will you read it if I leave it with you?" She asked.

My thoughts were, be totally honest with her. "No, Virginia. I will not read it." I told her. "I do not believe the way you do."

"Well you know, most of us Jehovah Witness come from other churches." She replied. I took this as I could possibly be converted. "Well, I'm charismatic and I would suppose that most of us come from other domination's." I said. She agreed.

I then told her that I was ordained and a Christian counselor and the conversation about religion stopped.

When she left she reached over and hugged me. I accepted the hug knowing that she truly meant it. I watched her walk away with dread and disappointment.
And then the questions came.

Does Virginia walk so that she can convert? Is this her way of going house to house. She sees you on your front porch and makes friends with you and then starts the conversion conversation. WOW!!! What a great technique.

Very few Christians go door to door witnessing any more. What a shame. We seems to keep to ourselves fearing backlash from people. Not wanting to step on toes or insult others we keep our religion to ourselves.

I'm disappointed in where Virginia is at, but admire her courage and plans. I might just try to take a walk tonight and meet some new neighbors.

Praise Be to God

Remember this:

"I've got the joy, joy, joy, joy,

down in my heart.

Where?

Down in my heart.

Where?

Down in my heart."

Well, that is my song today. I took myself through the soul and spirit tie breaking that you read on my last post and God answered that prayer.

"I feel good.

You knew that I would.

I feel good.

You knew that I would.

So Good, So Good.

I found you."

That was an old song. I certainly have songs on my heart today. God has delivered me from the dark. I praise him for deliverance. He is the great I AM. The Alpha and the Omega. My Father.

When I sit back this week, I can see what God did for me the last two weeks. How his plan for my redemption was laid out and I walked it till I was healed. I fell right into His plans without even looking for His plan. I was led by His power and mercy till I found my healing. Praise be to God.

Thank you for all your prayers, my brothers and sisters in Christ. Your prayers were heard and I am extremely grateful. You lifted me up on high and God led me out of the darkness. Your love heals.

I have energy again and hope. I am focused and I hope reliable. I look forward and not backwards. I see the light again and not the dark. I feel healthy and not sick. I pray and do not weep. God is good.

So, my future is bright because of Him. My hope lies in Him and my focus is on Him.

Thank you God.

A Gate of Hell (Queen E. Dixon)

March 25th, 2007,on a sunny Saturday afternoon at 2:35 PM, I came home from helping a friend and lay down to take a nap. All of a sudden, the right side of my bed started to roll like a wave of water as I was laying on the left side of my bed. I did not feel the bed moving, I only saw it moving.

Well, I am a born again Christian and I know to call on the name of Jesus when these things happen. So I started pleading the blood of Jesus over my bed then bam! I was standing up on the floor behind my bed. I remember standing there and thinking to myself, how did I get up here without remembering and who is this woman laying in my bed?!? And why is my bed still rolling like this?

Then I looked down at my body. I was slim and beautiful but naked! I specifically remember that there is no time in eternity, none! We are governed by time in this reality but in the spirit realm, there is no time governance. Also, I remember that all thoughts and communication are conveyed through thinking and then the recipient just receives what you are saying and then back and forth like that. No mouth needed!

I was then taken from my apartment and I appeared in this massive room where there were people of every colour and shape and size from every nation standing there, all dressed in very bright white. I thought to myself, this is a room of saints.

However, I was immediately told by my invisible spirit guide, who I knew was standing there beside me, that the white robes that these people were, people who were professing Christianity but had evil continually in there hearts. There were millions of people!!! Suddenly, I saw their flesh start to drip off of them like chocolate melting in heat. The flesh just started to drip off of these people right onto the floor. I just stood there in quiet amazement. I was told that all of these people are on their way to hell because they profess Christianity but have evil in their hearts continually. Then I was taken up into eternity, this is what took place. I was up in the air somewhere in eternity and I was looking down on this scene. There was a female, who has the same complexion as me laying on her back on this platform naked. She had shreds of clothing, white and black in colour, hanging around her neck. She was up on her elbows looking intensely at something in front of her.

There was a great being standing beside her that I could not see but I knew was there who was ALL POWERFUL! Over the entire scene was a canopy and the canopy was the spirit of God. The platform that this female lay on was a flat surface but there was a funnel under the platform and inside this funnel was a great whirlwind that kept this funnel in place.

Then, all of a sudden, I was down and inside this body. Now, I lay there. I was whimpering but too much in utter awe at what was happening in front of me. All of a sudden, a great circle appeared in front of me. The circle grew to the size of a two story house and a flat brown surface appeared inside this circle that acted as a door. Words appeared on this flat brown surface in a foreign language that resembled Hebrew. Although I didn't know the language, I could understand what the words said: THE GATES TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!

These gates started to open, and then I saw the fire...blue, yellow and red flames. I was told that the flames that I was looking at are 20,000 times hotter than the fire on earth and that this fire is fed by sulphur and brimstone. I then saw the darkness. The sun lights the day here and the moon lights the night here, but there is no darkness like it is in hell. The darkness is alive with pure evil!!!

I then saw the darkness..the sun lights the day here and the moon
lights the night here, but there is no darkness like it is in hell. The
darkness is alive...with pure evil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was about to be thrown
into this fire and then,all of a sudden, I was back into this body. I lay here in
this body, feeling heavy physically because the spirit is free with no flesh and
blood, just completely free but I lay here.

I was about to be thrown into this fire and then, all of a sudden, I was back into this body. I lay here in this body, feeling heavy physically because the spirit is free with no flesh and blood, just completely free but I lay here. The GOD of all ages spoke directly to me, this is what He said to me, and let me just say that He was ANGRY. When He spoke, His voice went through my bones like a massive vibration!!! All I could do is just lay there and hear my master speak.

He said,"This is the end of all sin. If you do not serve me
with your whole heart, I will use you to save others but you will die and go to
hell." "If you do not serve me with your whole heart, then you serve Me not at
all."

Than the Lord of hosts got even angrier and said, "TITHES AND
OFFERINGS ARE A COMMANDMENT. THIS IS HOW MY WORD IS
PREACHED, THIS IS WHAT TAKES CARE OF MY CHURCHES!!!!"

The Lord said, "You go and tell them....WITHOUT HOLINESS, NO MAN CAN
ENTER INTO MY KINGDOM!!!"

The Lord said to me exactly what was in the
bible, "Be ye holy as I am holy!!!!" This is what I changed me forever.

I was living half holy before this experience but not anymore. I am on my
way to Heaven. I do not ever want to go back to this disgusting place. The
Lord has also told me that he is going to use me to preach the unadulterated
truth of his word..NO SUGAR COATING...NO EASINESS...JUST HOLY
GHOST BOLDNESS.

This is why I was born. He gave me a boldness to tell
people things that they do not want to hear...It is ALL OR NOTHING WITH
JESUS CHRIST....NOTHING ELSE WILL SUFFICE.....ALL OR NOTHING...ALL OF
YOU OR NONE OF YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As Jesus Christ is my lord, my God and my king, this record is true and real
and is my personal beginning of wisdom.

The word of God says in Proverbs,
"The fear of God is the beginning of wisdom."

I fear him now and have an utter
reverance for the god of ages that I never had before.