Close to God

I have always taught, that before you pray healing over someone, one needs to ask God if healing is what He wants.

The Word of God states, that we are to lay hands on the sick and pray healing. But, for myself, God has told me numerous times that healing pray is not what He wants prayed or that the person being prayed over is going to pass over and healing prayer is not called for. In those times I listened to God and prayed what He told me to pray.

So, it became a habit of mine to listen to God before praying healing over a person, so that I am only doing what I see my Father doing.

Last night was different. My small group went over to visit with a friend who has Lou Gehrig's disease. She can no longer go to church, so the church goes to her. It was difficult to see her. She has lost way to much weight and can no longer eat nor speak.

She loves for small groups to come and worship at her home. While we were worshiping we sang a song, that I can not remember the name of, that had the words about a perfect gift. This made me think of what a perfect gift healing is. So, I spoke for a moment on healing being a perfect gift and we began to pray over her.

I listened for God to tell me what to do, but heard nothing. Confused that He was not answering me, I did not know what to do. But, I began to hear my own voice and what I had just spoke about. The laying on of hands and how that is what we are suppose to do according to the word of God. So, without the Lords usual guidance, I let myself be led by His Word.

I listened to the prayers of others and my heart began to melt with compassion. The room was full of the love of God. So, I prayed healing over her and she began to weep. It was so very difficult to watch, yet impossible not to minister to her.

Then God began to speak to me. He showed me her torment. She wants to communicate with us and be herself. This torments her. So, I began to speak to her about what God was showing me. That this is a special time for her. That she is so close to God. God himself is enjoying their communication. God is really the only one she can communicate with, now, in a full and meaningful conversation. He is always there beside her and loving their time together.

It is beautiful. When we look at Lou Gehrig's disease we see the horrible affects on the body. The mind trapped inside of a body loosing it functioning. But, in the spirit, their is beauty. For this woman, who knows the Lord so personally, it has become a thing of beauty. She is with her God. I would like to think that I am with God, but God showed me last night how much I miss the mark. She, this woman, in her disease, is with God.

They commune, her and God, on a level that surpasses anything I have ever encountered. There is no where for her to go except to her God. Her and God have built such an intimate relationship that it surpasses anything I have ever seen. She would like nothing more than to be healed, but she has accomplished something, in her illness, that is rare. A closeness to God, that can only be reached when we are shut up inside of our selves.