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Rabu, 23 Juli 2008

My Mothers Voice

 

I hesitate writing this one because of feed back. But, one can not say anything that I have not heard before. I have been called everything. I want to share because it brings up the scripture in the bible:

I Thessalonians 4:16

For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first.



The other night my brother, Only in His Service, whom lives with me, came down the stairs excited. He told me he heard a voice. That the voice had told him something personal. Then he asked me to guess whose voice it was. Of course, I had no idea. He was so excited. He then told me it was our mothers voice, who had died in April.
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I got excited myself. Wanting so badly to be with my mother, I felt wonderful.

We went into the living room and told my husband. Now, my brother is not as supernatural as I am, but since living with me, is coming into his own. So, a conversation started.

First, my mother had a similar experience when I was about 17 years of age. Her and I were visiting her father in Kentucky. Her mother had past away a while back and her father was showing the first symptoms of Alzheimer's. He was constantly talking to his dead wife. One night, while we were visiting, my mother had gone to sleep with a terrible headache. In a dream she heard her mothers voice. The voice said that when she woke, she would see her dead mother and her head ache would leave. When she woke, there was her mother and her head ache left.

That event was shared in our conversation. We then went to, how can this be? I, of course, in all the supernatural things that have happened to me, did not really care, how this could happen, but became curious. How can this line up with the Word of God?
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The verse quoted at the top of this page came up. Since my thoughts on the rapture are, "I hope there is one, but I do not see it in the Bible", I have always wondered at this verse. My brother, who believes totally in the rapture, had a new thought on this verse. He suggested that perhaps we linger here on this earth. That we wait here for the Lord. This began to make sense to me.

In my life, I have seen many dead people. I do not know why I have this gift, but it happens now and then. I see them in their earthly body. I recognized them and know what they want. I do not talked to them because the Bible tells me not to. But, there is a kind of communication, because I always, supernaturally, know what they want. Which is usually comfort for someone.

So, if we linger, why would we not see them or hear them. The spirit realm is alive and active. There is good and evil just like in the realm that we live in. I do not have all the answers, but I know that it is very possible that the dead linger, waiting for that wonderful day of the return of our Lord Jesus Christ.
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I am happy. Just like when I see the dead and it brings comfort to someone, my brother hearing our mothers voice has comforted me. It brings me joy to know that she is near. My mother loved Jesus and waits for His presence as I wait for His return. I look forward to that day, when, we are all together in the presence of the Lord Almighty.

Selasa, 22 Juli 2008

Prophesy "Walk in the Realm of the Supernatural"

 
From Diane Mourey

Walk in the Realm of the Supernatural
prophecy by Diana Mourey at the altar of Ignited Church, 06/2008

Can you take hold of the supernatural, asks your God? Can you take hold and believe you walk in the realm of the supernatural? Can you take hold and believe indeed I will come forth on of those who call upon me?

Even as you have called upon me, I will come forth, and I will come forth on a white horse, saith God. I will come forth and it will be with a sword indeed in the realm of the supernatural and they will see, for their eyes will be opened. For I've heard your heart cry and I've seen your tears. I've heard your intercession.

I have felt compassion, saith God, for this generation, saith God. For this is the generation that will rise up and walk in the supernatural realm, and they shall see and they shall hear and they shall move with God and they shall do exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits, exploits shall cover the earth in this hour. For this is my generation; these are my youth; this is that of which I have spoken of in times past, and you shall see it happen.

So yes, be comforted; be comforted in this hour. Be comforted; be comforted; be comforted in this hour, for you shall see with your own eyes that which I am establishing and you shall see it come forth even as your heart has desired it.

I am lifting up a supernatural standard on their behalf. Yes, you have heard of and you have seen those who are dying and who have lost their lives needlessly, but know this: I am standing in the gap for my little ones. I am standing in the gap, saith God. It is time; it is time; it is time and the enemy shall be put on the run.

Senin, 21 Juli 2008

Help with Understanding

 

I am not sure how to say what is on my mind today. Some may find what I am about to write alarming or insulting, but I suppose since I am looking for answers, I am putting this out there hoping that someone will have thoughts on what I am about to write.

I will try not to ramble here, but I hesitate getting to the subject, so bare with me.

Whenever I do a inner healing, on someone, God guides me through. He gives me words, visions, pictures, whatever is needed to help the person find healing. I have done hundreds of inner healings over the years and God has always shown up.

When I started doing inner healings, often I would get a picture, in my mind, that was.....well....vulgar. These pictures would disturb me and I would shake my head and try to get rid of it. The picture...I thought...was some kind of sickness inside of me. That somehow, I was, for some reason, pulling up these pictures from my subconscious. I felt dirty, less than and just plain wrong.
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These pictures were basically the same. Always...excuse me...always, the private parts of a person. I did not understand why this was happening to me nor how to stop it. I had repented, looked deep inside myself, and prayed against it. But, there it would come again. It only happened to me during an inner healing.

I am very good at letting things go. So, after a while, I would just keep going, knowing that this was going to happen and I'd better just ask forgiveness and go on. Then revelation happened this weekend. This is were my confusion comes in.

They say that confusion is of Satan. That is true, so I am asking you, dear reader, if you have an answer to this confusion.

I had an inner healing this weekend. Sure enough, the picture showed up. But, this time, it was very vivid and I saw a close up of a sex act. I thought that we were getting close to being done. But, I knew, at that moment that there was something else and it was big. Suddenly my eyes were open and I could see this huge demon in the room.
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I was undone. I got up and was trying to get away from the picture in my mind. I can not remember what I said except that maybe there was more. I was walking away, still trying to escape, when out of the mouth of the one having the inner healing comes exactly what I am seeing. I cringed. Actually, I was shivering and wanting to vomit.

She continued to speak and tell about horrible things that had happened to her. The picture began to subside. I sat back down and called for a break to speak to the person assisting me. All in all the woman, having the inner healing, was set free.

As you can see, my confusion is in why would God show me such pictures? It is absolutely from God. The pictures lead me to the place I need to go for the healing of the person. But, the pictures feel pornographic. I recoil at them. I would like to make a deal with God and ask that He would show me a picture of a rose instead and then I would know what that meant.
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My mind reels at the lack of understanding of why it is important for me to see such pictures. It all seems contradictory to what God is and what He stands for. Some would say, this is not of God. But, I know that it is. Without the pictures freedom, for the person wanting healing, would not be complete. So, dear reader, what do you think?

Minggu, 20 Juli 2008

Bahasa roh

Adalah Tanda yang pertama dan utama bila seseorang dipenuhi oleh Roh Kudus (Kis 2:4 – Maka penuhlah mereka dengan Roh Kudus, lalu mereka mulai berkata-kata dalam bahasa-bahasa lain, seperti yang diberikan oleh Roh itu kepada mereka untuk mengatakannya).

Firman Allah mengajarkan bahwa bila kita dipenuhi ole Roh Kudus, maka kita pun berbicara dalam bahasa roh sebagaimana Roh memberikan ucapan itu kepada kita. Itu merupakan pertanda awal tentang baptisan Roh Kudus.

Oleh sebab itu, alasan pertama mengapa orang harus berbicara bahasa roh adalah karena hal ini menunjukkan satu bukti kekuatan ilahi yang menunjukkan Roh itu berdiam di dalam diri kita.

Dalam Kisah Para Rasul 10, kita membaca bagaimana saudara-saudara kita orang Yahudi yang telah datang bersama Petrus ke rumah Kornelius menjadi tercengang-cengang ketika melihat bahwa karunia Roh Kudus juga dilimpahkan ke atas orang-orang kafir. Mereka menyangka karunia Roh hanya diperuntukkan bagi orang Yahudi.

Bagaimana orang-orang Yahudi ini bisa tahu bahwa seisi rumah Kornelius telah dipenuhi Roh Kudus??? Oleh sebab mereka mendengar orang-orang itu berkata-kata dalam bahasa roh dan memuliakan Allah. (Kis 10:46)

Jumat, 18 Juli 2008

ANDA MAU BENAR-BENAR SEMBUH DARI PENYAKIT?

Syarat-syarat:

  1. Percayalah sepenuhnya di dalam hati Anda dan akuilah dengan mulut Anda bahwa Yesus Kristus adalah Tuhan.
  1. Akuilah segala dosa Anda, dosa besar maupun dosa kecil, yakni dosa tentang kejahatan atau kenajisan Anda. Mohon ampun kepada Tuhan Yesus.
  1. Berdoalah dengan sungguh-sungguh, katakan dengan mulut Anda dengan tegas : “Bilur Yesus sudah sembuhkan saya.”
  1. Kasihilah sesama saudara dengan kasih Allah.

Close to God

 

I have always taught, that before you pray healing over someone, one needs to ask God if healing is what He wants.

The Word of God states, that we are to lay hands on the sick and pray healing. But, for myself, God has told me numerous times that healing pray is not what He wants prayed or that the person being prayed over is going to pass over and healing prayer is not called for. In those times I listened to God and prayed what He told me to pray.

So, it became a habit of mine to listen to God before praying healing over a person, so that I am only doing what I see my Father doing.

Last night was different. My small group went over to visit with a friend who has Lou Gehrig's disease. She can no longer go to church, so the church goes to her. It was difficult to see her. She has lost way to much weight and can no longer eat nor speak.

She loves for small groups to come and worship at her home. While we were worshiping we sang a song, that I can not remember the name of, that had the words about a perfect gift. This made me think of what a perfect gift healing is. So, I spoke for a moment on healing being a perfect gift and we began to pray over her.
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I listened for God to tell me what to do, but heard nothing. Confused that He was not answering me, I did not know what to do. But, I began to hear my own voice and what I had just spoke about. The laying on of hands and how that is what we are suppose to do according to the word of God. So, without the Lords usual guidance, I let myself be led by His Word.

I listened to the prayers of others and my heart began to melt with compassion. The room was full of the love of God. So, I prayed healing over her and she began to weep. It was so very difficult to watch, yet impossible not to minister to her.
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Then God began to speak to me. He showed me her torment. She wants to communicate with us and be herself. This torments her. So, I began to speak to her about what God was showing me. That this is a special time for her. That she is so close to God. God himself is enjoying their communication. God is really the only one she can communicate with, now, in a full and meaningful conversation. He is always there beside her and loving their time together.

It is beautiful. When we look at Lou Gehrig's disease we see the horrible affects on the body. The mind trapped inside of a body loosing it functioning. But, in the spirit, their is beauty. For this woman, who knows the Lord so personally, it has become a thing of beauty. She is with her God. I would like to think that I am with God, but God showed me last night how much I miss the mark. She, this woman, in her disease, is with God.

They commune, her and God, on a level that surpasses anything I have ever encountered. There is no where for her to go except to her God. Her and God have built such an intimate relationship that it surpasses anything I have ever seen. She would like nothing more than to be healed, but she has accomplished something, in her illness, that is rare. A closeness to God, that can only be reached when we are shut up inside of our selves.

Rabu, 16 Juli 2008

Demon On His Shoulder

 

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God had me tell a young man, a while back, that he had a demon on his shoulder. Now, I see demons on people quit often, but usually do not tell a person. But, this time was different. The young man and I had a long conversation and he decided he was not ready to get rid of this demon.

Our conversation went well. We did not discuss where the demon cane from or what gave it the right to be there. But, we did talk about freedom and God's will for him. When I left him, we were friendly towards each other and hugged goodbye.

After that, every time I would see this man, he would turn his eyes from me. I asked his wife what was up with him. I felt that he knew that I knew what the demon was about. Which I did. He was addicted to pain medication. His wife told me that he was afraid of me. His fear was because, he was sure, I knew everything about everybody. My response to that comment was "Boy, that would be horrible." When I told her to tell him this was not the way it was. She said, she would rather him think that I do know everything about everybody. She felt it would make him more conscious of his behavior.
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So, for the last year, this man has been afraid of me. I, intentionally would, every time I would have the opportunity, say "Hello" to him. My intention was to try and brake the ice with him. But, when I would say "Hello" he would lower his head and give me a weak "hello" back.

I felt bad about what was going on. I wanted him to be free from the oppression and from the fear of myself. I wondered at why God would have me tell this man about the demon if he would do nothing about it. What is the purpose in all this. I did not like seeing his torment time after time.

Last Sunday night when I was prophesying at the graduation, he was in attendance. I saw him before it started, but kept my distance. There wa a moment in the graduation when I laid hands on a man and God filled him with the spirit of God and he was slain. He fell to the ground and laid there for a while.

After graduation, I found myself standing next to the man who is afraid of me. I said, "Hello". I expected the usual timid response. But, what I got threw me off balance. He turned right at me and said, with joy in his voice, "I knew he was going to fall down. As soon as you touched him. I knew it."
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Wow!! I was so stunned, I think I might have just stared at him. Then he said, "I got that demon off my shoulder." Then he just talked and talked. He told me what the demon was and how he was free from medication. That he still hurt physically but was free emotionally and spiritually. I said very little. There was little time to say anything because he had so much to say. I was awed.

Incredible is all I could think. When he left me, I looked at his wife. "He still thinks you know everything." is what she said to me. "But, he thinks, now, it is for the good."

Well, I do not know everything, but that idea helped this man. It took a year for him to get free, but God's timing is everything. I celebrate this mans freedom, it is glorious to see his joy. You never know what God is doing, but it always turns out wonderful.

Selasa, 15 Juli 2008

God's Timing

 

I am the sort of person that does not believe that there a thing called time. I know that for God there is no such thing as time, so it would go hand in hand that there is no such thing as time for us. I believe that everything happens together in God's plan and that the concept of time, that we are under, is for the benefit of us.

Within that concept of time, that God has laid out for us, God's timing is everything. The last few months I have watched that concept, God's timing, as it moved me right into where He wanted me.
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As, most readers know, I went through a battle with depression. While there, I had little to do. My phone might ring, but it was not as often as usual and my appointments were far less often. The needs of people for my giftings where not called upon as usual.

My depression was over my mother passing away. While she was with us it was difficult for me to work in my giftings because she was in my home and her needs good, at times, be great.

Just when I came out of my depression, suddenly my phone begins to ring and my calendar is booked. His timing is everything.
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Sunday night, while at the graduation. I touched a woman on the back. As soon as I did, I had a vision. I saw her being thrown around a room by her husband. I watched the vision wondering what I was to do with it. It was not an appropriate time to speak to her and would she want to hear what I was seeing.

I was torn. Knowing that she needed help and also knowing that God's timing is everything. Sometimes the things God shows me is a burden.

So, I went on about my business and finished the graduation. When I went to leave, I saw her walking down the hall and said goodbye. She asked me to wait. "Do you do spiritual healing?" She asked. I responded with "yes".

She told me that she had been trying to call me, but that my phone does not work. Had to explain that for some reason, if you call me and I am on the phone, my phone will hang up on you or tell you I am not taking your calls. Is that not crazy. Anyways, as we stepped outside of the church, she asked if she could come and see me.
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A young and beautiful woman. She is as tall as I am, which is tall. Eye to eye we stood, looking deep into those port holes to the soul. "Let me tell you why you want to come see me." I said. I then told her of the vision I had.

Her response was to continue to stare into my eyes. "Am I right?" I asked. She said "Yes". "Of course I will meet with you". I responded. She was relieved and went on her way. I watched her walk off thinking how God had brought me though so much to ready me to go back to service in His work.
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So, my schedule as, again, become packed. The needs of God's people are great and heart felt. I watched as God's timing brings them to me and thank God that He has gifted me with helps. As I watched them heal and grow I praise God that He uses me and I thank God for His power and mercy. Without Him, none of this is possible.

WAKTU SEMAKIN HABIS (VICTORIA NEHALE)

Inilah kesaksian Victoria Nehale

Saya dilahirkan dan dibesarkan dan tinggal di Namibia dan menyerahkan hidupku bagi Yesus pada 06 February, 2005. Tuhan Yesus Kristus telah menyatakan banyak hal dalam spiritual kehidupanku termasuk beberapa perjalanan ke Neraka. Tuhan memberi petunjuk agar membagikan pengalaman ini dengan orang; Dia juga memperingatkan saya untuk tidak menambahkan atau mengurangi dari apa yang Tuhan Yesus Kristus telah tunjukan atau katakan.Saya selesai menulis buku ini, akhir tahun 2006, saya dikunjungi 33 kali oleh Tuhan Yesus Kristus. Setiap kunjungan, Tuhan mengatakan sebelum pergi bahwa: WAKTU SEDANG TERBURU HABIS

Perjalanan pertama ke Neraka

Pada akhir pekan 23 Juli 2005, Saya menumpang taksi selama 30 menit dari kota Ondangwa dimana saya tinggal dan bekerja, ke kampungku, ber-akhir pekan bersama orang tuaku. Pada perjalanan pulang, Saya rasakan sesuatu yang Luarbiasa akan terjadi malam itu. Saya tiba di rumah sekitar jam 18H00 saat makan malam disiapkan. Saya berada didapur dengan semua keluarga, berbaring dilantai teralas selimut tua, sementara keponakan dan kemenakan kecilku nyanyikan lagu-lagu sekolah minggu mereka. Tiba-tiba urapan yang berat turun padaku, tubuhku menjadi sangat lemah, dan saya pingsan dalam Kuasa Allah. Saya melihat seorang lelaki, memakai sebuah jubah putih panjang dan ikat pinggang berwarna sama, berjalan ke-arah dimana saya berbaring. Cahaya yang luar biasa mengelilingi-Nya seolah-olah bersinar dari-Nya. Dia memakai sandal coklat; Wajah-Nya seperti orang timur tengah,dan kulitnya indah.Wajah-Nya sangat ramah dan penuh kemuliaan tetapi saya tak dapat melihat mata-Nya. Saat Dia berbicara, Suara-Nya sangat lembut, Ramah dan penuh Kasih, namun BerKuasa; gelombang-gelombang kasih keluar dari rupa-Nya.

Dia mengulurkan tangan-Nya dan mengangkat-ku. Tiba-tiba saya berada dalam tubuh yang indah, tubuh transformasiku; saya terlihat seperti umur saya pada saat delapan belas tahun. Saya memakai jubah putih dan ikat pinggang putih. Walaupun jubahku putih, namun bahannya berbeda dari lelaki yang berjubah putih tersebut. Jubah-Nya ber-sutera indah yang tak dapat di- gambarkan.

Dia berkata, suara-Nya lemah lembut dan penuh kasih: “Victoria, AKu-mau engkau ikut Aku; Akan Ku-tunjukan hal-hal yang menakutkan, akan Ku-bawah ke tempat di mana engkau tak pernah berada sebelumnya diseluruh hidup-mu”.Dia memegang tangan kananku dan kamipun pergi.Seolah-olah kami berjalan diudara dan terus naik. Dalam perjalanan, Saya letih dan berkata pada-Nya bahwa saya tak dapat lanjutkan perjalanan dan memohon agar membawaku kembali.Namun, Dengan lembut Dia memandangku dan berkata,“engkau tak letih–engkau baik.Jika letih Aku akan menggendong-mu,namun saat ini engkau baik.Damai menyertaimu.Mari kita pergi.”

Tempat dimana kami tiba sangat kering, lebih buruk dari padang kering yang diketahui manusia, tak ada tanda kehidupan sedikitpun. Tak ada pepohonan atau rumput atau suatu tanda-tanda kehidupan. Sungguh tempat yang sangat tertekan.

Kami tiba di-gerbang, Dia menoleh padaku dan berkata:“Victoria,kami akan masuk melalui gerbang, dan hal yang kau saksikan akan sangat menakutkanmu dan meng-goncangkanmu–namun kuatkan percaya-mu sebab kau dalam lindungan-Ku ketempat engkau Ku-bawah.Bukalah matamu dan perhatikanlah segala sesuatu yang Ku-tunjukan padamu.” Saya terkejut dan menangis. Saya mem-protes dan memohon agar Ia membawaku kembali. Saya berkata bahwa saya tak suka pergi kesana sebab saya dapat melihat kedalam melalui gerbang.Dia memandangku dan berkata,“Damai menyertaimu; Aku menyertai-mu.Kami harus masuk, sebab waktu terburu habis.”

Kami masuk melalui gerbang. Saya tak dapat menggambarkan padamu kengerian tempat itu. Saya mengaku tak ada tempat diseluruh jagat raya ini seburuk itu. Tempat itu sangat besar dan ku-rasakan seperti melebar terus menerus. Tempat itu sangat gelap pekat dan kepanasannya tak dapat diukur: panasnya melebihi panas api. Saya tak dapat melihat puncah api atau pusat kepanasan itu tetapi sungguh sangat PANAS. Tempat itu dipenuhi dengan serangga berbagai ukuran dan warna- hijau, hitam, dan abu-abu. Segala jenis serangga ada disana. juga, ada pendek, tebal, cacing hitam dimana-mana, memanjat disana-sini. Cacing-cacing itu mulai memanjati kami dan serangga-serangga itu mulai mengerumuni kami. Tempat itu dipenuhi benda-benda menjijikan; tak ada kata-kata yang pantas bagi segala sesuatu yang ada disana. Aromanya seperti daging busuk tetapi seratus kali lebih buruk dari daging busuk yang pernah dalam hidupku. Tempat itu dipenuhi dengan keluhan tangisan dan kertakan gigi, bersamaan dengan iblis-iblis dan kekejian tertawanya.

Hal terburuk di tempat ini ialah dipenuhi manusia.Tak terhitung banyaknya orang. ber-bentuk tengkorak. Dapat ku-pastikan bahwa tengkorak-tengkorak ini adalah manusia sebab ku-kenal beberapa sanak saudara-ku dan orang-orang desaku. Tulang mereka gelap berabu-abu dan sangat kering. Mereka memiliki gigi-gigi tajam panjang seperti binatang liar. Bermulut besar dan lebar dan lidah mereka panjang dan merah menyala. Tangan dan kaki mereka panjang, jari-jari kaki kurus dan jari tangan panjang, kuku-kuku tajam. Beberapa dari mereka memiliki ekor dan tanduk.

Ada iblis-iblis yang bergabung dengan mereka: iblis yang rupanya seperti buaya dan berjalan dengan empat kaki. Mereka terlihat senang dengan lingkungannya dan terus menerus mengganggu dan menekan manusia. Suara yang dikeluarkan iblis-iblis ini seperti suara perayaan, sebagaimana mereka terlihat gembira dan bebas; mereka bahkan selalu berdansa dan melompat. Manusia, disisi lain, terlihat sangat tertekan dan depresi; tak ada pertolongan dan pengharapan. Suara-suara manusia ini disebabkan oleh penderitaan yang sangat; mereka menangis, menjerit dan menggertakkan giginya, mereka sungguh dalam situasi yang putus asa oleh penderitaan yang tak terbandingkan.

Orang-orang ditempat ini sangat tak terhitung tetapi dapat kulihat bahwa mayoritas perempuan. Mereka dibagi dalam beberapa kelompok berbeda. Bahkan jika mereka dalam kelompok, sangat sulit untuk mengetahui jumlah mereka sebab kelompok-kelompok mereka sangat besar.

Aku dibimbing kearah-kelompok timur. Dia memandangku dan berkata:“Victoria, kelompok ini ialah orang yang tak mengampuni orang lain. berkali-kali Aku berkata dalam banyak cara agar mengampuni yang lain namun mereka menolak-Ku; Aku telah mengampuni dosanya namun mereka menolak untuk mengampuni. Saat Waktu telah berakhir mereka temukan dirinya disini. selamanya; mereka memakan buah pekerjaannya selamanya. Bagaimanapun juga, hal ini sangat menyakiti-Ku melihat mereka di tempat dan situasi keji ini-sebab Aku mengasihi mereka.”

Kemudian aku dibawah ke kelompok lain, lelaki ini mengatakan padaku bahwa kelompok berikut ini adalah mereka yang memiliki kesalahan.ada tiga kategori berbeda dalam kelompok itu. kategori pertama adalah orang-orang yang menahan pengampunan itu: mereka dapat membayar kewajibannya namun mereka menunggu dan mengulur-ulur. Serta berkata besok mereka akan melakukannya, minggu depan, Tahun depan, hingga waktunya habis,sekarang mereka menemukan dirinya ditempat ini. Disinilah mereka berada selamanya; mereka memakan buah pekerjaannya.

Kategori kedua ialah mereka yang mempunyai salah yang dapat dibayar kembali dan mereka-pun mau melakukannya, namun kuatir dan takut akan konsekwensi, sebab, mungkin,jika mengatakan yang sebenarnya mereka akan menderita ditolak atau dijebloskan ke penjara atau yang disampaikan mereka akan disebarkan ke seluruh dunia dan mereka akan dipermalukan. Lelaki ini berkata: “Tak ada seorangpun yang datang pada-Ku untuk meminta petunjuk. Jika mereka melakukannya, Aku akan menunjukan jalan keluar yang mudah bagi mereka. Mereka menggunakan hikmat dan akal mereka yang tak menolong.Waktu mereka habis dan mereka menemukan dirinya ditempat ini untuk selamanya. Mereka memakan buah pekerjaannya.”

Ia berkata:”kategori ketiga ialah kesalahan yang tak bisa dibayar,namun, sekali lagi,tak seorang darinya datang pada-Ku,berkata bahwa mereka tak bisa menebus kesalahan-nya.Jika mereka melakukannya,Aku akan menebus kesalahannya. Merekapun coba memakai akal dan hikmat,yang tak menolong apapun caranya.Sekarang mereka temukan dirinya di sini selamanya. Mereka memakan buah pekerjaannya.Hati-Ku pilu bagi semuanya sebab Aku sangat mengasihi mereka.”

Pada kelompok pertama, saya melihat dua keluarga dekatku, juga yang berumur dua belas tahun, sanak-saudaraku. Saya tahu dia berumur dua belas tahun sebab pada umur itulah dia meninggal. Pada keompok kedua saya melihat keluargaku yang lain dan Pastor/pendeta, yang kukenal sangat dekat. Jakes, pasanganku yang membunuh dirinya sebab saya memberikan hidupku bagi Kristus, juga berada dalam kelompok kedua. Juga kulihat beberapa tetanggaku pada kedua kelompok ini.

Ku-kenal mereka ini sebelum kematiannya; merekapun mengenalku. Keluarga dekat ku sangat marah saat melihatku dan meneriakkan kata-kata keji padaku; mereka menggunakan kata-kata kasar seolah-olah mengutuk-ku. Salah seorang dari mereka mengatakan bahwa saya tak layak mengikuti Lelaki yang bersama dengan-ku; mereka mengatakan hal-hal yang pernah kulakukan sebelum memberi hidupku bagi Kristus.Mereka tak berdusta; hal-hal yang di-lontarkan benar. Jakes bahkan berkata bahwa saya miliknya dan harus pergi ketempat dia berada sekarang sebab dosa saya sama sepertinya. Awalnya Pastor/Pendeta terlihat senang melihatku dan dia berkata bahwa baik sekali perbuatanku datang ketempat itu tetapi segera kelakuannya berubah saat mengetahui siapa yang menemaniku lalu dia bergabung dengan mereka dan melontarkan kutukan yang sangat kasar. Lelaki yang bersamaku mengatakan untuk menghiraukan mereka sebab mereka tidak tahu apa yang mereka perbuat.

Saya takut dan sedih; tubuhku bergetar dan tak dapat berdiri. Saya menangis tak terkendali.Lelaki ini berbalik, memberi pelukan,dan berkata:“Damai menyertaimu, Victoria.”Kekuatanku pulih dan kurasa Aman dalam pelukan-Nya. Dia berkata kami harus pergi dari tempat itu dan kembali.Dia memandangku dan berkata:Victoria, telah Ku-tunjukan padamu. Sekarang kau harus pilih pada kelompok mana kau mau berada;pilihan ada dalam tangan-mu. Kau harus katakan pada orang apa yang kau lihat dan alami namun jangan menambakan atau mengurangi sesuatupun.”

Saya teringat kami tinggalkan tempat keji itu bersamaan tetapi tidak kuketahui dimana saya meninggalkan-Nya sebab Dia tak nampak lagi: saat mataku terbuka saya telah kembali pada tubuh jasmaniku, terbaring di RS Oshakati. Ada cairan di lengan kiri, kulihat ibu serta tetanggaku yang lainnya dari desa di sudut kamar,Mereka memandang saya dengan penuh keheranan. Dapat kulihat bekas tangisan pada wajah ibuku. Saya bertanya pada salah satu suster jika dia tahu apa yang telah terjadi denganku namun dia hanya berkelakar dan berkata: “Kau dikirim kembali; mungkin karena engkau melakukan sesuatu yang salah dan perlu pertobatan.” Suster itu mencoba berbicara dengan santai tentang kondisiku namun dapat kulihat bahwa dia takut mendekatiku. Saya berkata padanya untuk memanggil dokter bagi-ku.

Saat tiba, dokter katakan bahwa dia tak tahu apa penyebabnya. inisialnya, dia berpikir bahwa saya sakit malaria namun hasil pemeriksaan malaria negatif. Dia mengatakan bahwa suhu badan, urat nadi dan peredaran darahku sangat mengancam rendah namun dia tak mendapat penyebab semuanya itu. dia katakan bahwa tak ada yang dapat dilakukan untukku; dia tak bisa mengaku bahwa saya sebenarnya tidak sakit. Cairan yang digunakan sebelumnya tak bekerja namun setelah saya membuka mataku, cairan itupun mulai bekerja. Dia merekomendasikan agar suster memberikan cairan kedua agar saya memiliki cukup tenaga untuk pulang.

Saya ketakutan pada apa yang telah saya lihat dan menangis. Bau tempat menjijikan itu terus menjadi nyata seolah-olah saya masih berada disana. Pemandangan tempat tersebut muncul setiap waktu. Saya tak dapat tidur dan seluruh tubuhku kesakitan. Kurasakan seolah-olah seluruh sendi-sendiku terlepas, dan diatur kembali. Oh, Saya tak berdaya. Diare dan sakit kepala muncul dalam seminggu.

Pikiranku telah mantap, tak akan ceritakan peristiwa ini pada siapapun, siapakah yang akan mempercayaiku? Apa yang akan di-pikirkan? Saya terus berkata pada diriku bahwa tak akan menghubungkan pengalaman ini dengan siapapun. Salah satu mentor menelepon-ku tiga hari berikutnya memastikan kesehatanku sebab ku-kirim pesan lewat telepon genggam dan memintah dia berdoa bagiku. Sebelumnya saya telah menceritakan peristiwa ini padanya. Saat sadar apa yang ku-perbuat sebenarnya telah saya ceritakan hampir seluruh peristiwa itu. Saya ingin menendang diriku. Saya menangis sebab telah melakukan kesalahan besar dalam hidupku. Sekarang terlambat, tak mungkin saya dapat menyembunyikan lagi. Sekarang saya tahu bahwa jika Allah ingin sesuatu disampaikan, hal itu akan terjadi. Dia-lah Allah, segala-nya.

Pada 19 Agustus, saya terbangun, merasakan urapan dalam tubuhku. Saya lemah dan bergetar,sementara gelombang listrik menjalar diseluruh tubuhku. Pada malam saya melihat cahaya terang masuk ke-kamarku dan dalam terang itu kulihat Lelaki yang sama. Kali ini Dia duduk pada kursi di samping tempat tidurku. tak kutahu darimana datangnya kursi tersebut namun berada disana pada saat Dia hendak duduk. Kursi itu indah terbuat dari emas murni; bentuk kursi indah, dan sandarannya. Pada setiap kaki ada bintang perak yang diukir dalam emas; bintang yang sama juga pada pusat sandarannya. Dan roda-roda bulat pada setiap kaki kursi.

Setelah menyalamiku, Dia katakan bahwa Dia tahu saya mempunyai pertanyaan tentang identitas-Nya dan Dia hendak menyatakan diri padaku dan jelaskan hal-hal khusus yang kualami.Dia berkata: “Aku-lah Yesus Kristus, Juruselamat-mu. Jika ada kebimbangan padamu, lihatlah tangan-Ku. Tempat sebelumnya ialah neraka.” Saat kulihat tangan-Nya, ku-lihat bekas-bekas luka dimana paku-paku menembus-nya.

Sahabatku, Ingin ku-sampaikan bahwa Neraka itu bukan ilusi siapapun tetapi tempat nyata dan men-jijikkan. Bukan bagi manusia tetapi bagi setan dan iblisnya. Tempat kita sebenarnya ialah Surga bersama Yesus tetapi kita harus memilih Yesus sebelum lambat. Hari ini, jikalau engkau mendengar suara-Nya, janganlah keraskan hati-mu; terimah Yesus sebagai Juruselamat pribadimu dan hiduplah bagi-Nya. Neraka tempat yang keji: penuh ketakutan dan kesedihan; siksaan, tangisan kekal dan kertakan gigi. Setan mau membawa sebanyak mungkin. Jangan-lah bekerja sama dengannya; bekerja-samalah dengan Yesus dan engkau akan hidup dan tak mati.

Saya tak mengerti mengapa Tuhan memberiku pilihan diantara dua kelompok di neraka saat saya telah dilahirkan kembali. Saya telah menerima Dia kedalam hidup-ku dan Dia masih mengatakan padaku untuk memilih pergi ke neraka atau tidak. Saya tak mengerti. Saya mulai berdoa dan memohon Allah memberiku petunjuk akan apa yang Dia maksudkan dan apa yang Dia inginkan ku-lakukan. Tuhan menunjukan padaku bahwa saya menahan pengampunan dan luka mendalam di hati terhadap salah seorang saudari-ku, juga sepupu-ku. Saya memohon pada Tuhan mengampuni Roh ketidak-ampunan-ku; Saya juga memohon saudariku agar mengampuniku atas dengki dan kepahitan dalam hatiku terhadapnya. Tuhan memberi ku petunjuk agar pergi dan memohon pengampunan dari sepupuku.

Tuhan juga mengingatkan-ku saat melamar sebagai pengajar dengan diploma palsu/ tak murni dan Hal itu sebagai kesalahan dan pencurian dimataNya. Saya berkeras hati bahwa yang kulakukan benar dan memohon Tuhan agar menolongku melalui persoalan ini dan menunjukan jalan keluar sebab hal ini adalah kriminal serius yang dapat membawaku ke penjara. Tuhan memberi petunjuk untuk pergi ke Departemen pendidikan dan mengakui apa yang telah kulakukan.jika hal ini tak dapat dihindari Saya telah siap untuk dipenjarakan. Namun ku-alami pertolongan Tuhan yang besar.Kepala Departemen pendidikan mengatakan bahwa saya putuskan apa yang hendak dilakukan: membayar kembali gaji yang telah diberi melalui pemerintah atau tidak.Mereka janji tak akan membuat tuntutan terhadap-ku sebab mereka tertegun oleh pengakuan-ku.Allah kita Allah yang setia yang menghormati Firman-Nya.

Jika kau dalam situasi yang sama, Saya ajak melakukan apa yang benar,tak peduli apapun akibatnya. Mungkin dipenjarakan di penjara dunia yang sementara. Tak ada kesakitan atau malu yang sebanding dengan perpisahan kekal dari Allah. Neraka bukan tempat indah:lebih baik membiarkan Allah mengadili-mu sekarang sebelum terlambat. Kita harus takut akan pengadilan Allah selama dalam masa Anugerah ini: kita harus menyilakan Tuhan menilik apa yang salah dalam hidup kita selama masih ada waktu memperbaiki bersama-Nya sebab tak ada pengampunan dibalik kuburan.

Kunjungan ke-2 di Neraka

Pada 18 Oktober 2005 Saya terbangun pada jam 05H30 tetapi saya tak dapat pergi bekerja. Saya merasa lemah dan mabuk; Saya tak bisa bergerak atau berbalik badan di tempat tidurku, kehadiran Tuhan sangat-lah kuat dalam ruangan itu. Saya bergetar dan merasakan listrik diseluruh tubuhku. Tuhan datang membawa-ku tepat sebelum jam 08H00 sebab ku-perhatikan jam tangan, pukul 07H48, dan Dia tiba saat itu. Dia menyalamiku dan berkata kita harus pergi lagi sebab waktunya terburu habis. Saya berdiri dan mulai berjalan. Cara kami berjalan saat ini berbeda dari saat yang lain; walaupun kaki kami bergerak, kami seperti terapung daripada berjalan. Sementara dalam perjalanan, Yesus berkata bahwa semua dosa adalah buruk dan tak ada dosa kecil atau dosa besar. Semua dosa membawa pada kematian, tak peduli besar atau kecil. Tuhan mengatakan padaku bahwa kami akan mengunjungi neraka lagi lalu bertanya jikalau saya ketakutan. Saya menjawab bahwa saya takut.

Dia berkata,”Roh ketakutan bukan dari Bapa-Ku atau Dari-Ku, namun dari iblis. ketakutan akan menyebabkan-mu melakukan hal yang menibakan-mu di Neraka.”

Tanpat Iman tidak mungkin berkenan pada Allah dan ketakutan berlawanan dengan Iman. Sangat jelas bahwa ketakutan tidak berkenan pada Allah sebab merusakkan satu Iman. Selama kami dalam perjalanan, kami berjalan bersama tetapi saat kami tiba di gerbang neraka, Dia memegang tanganku dan menggenggamnya setiap detik kami di Neraka. Saya sangat bersukacita bahwa Tuhan memegang tangan-ku sebab kepalan tangan-Nya menghalau segala ketakutan dari padaku.Tempat itu masih sama: tak ada perbedaan dari awal. Ada serangga, cacing, sangat panas, bau, tengkorak, jeritan: segala sesuatu sama seperti pada awal kunjungan. Kami masuk gerbang kotor itu dan Tuhan membawaku pada kelompok yang satu. Banyak orang yang kukenal selama mereka hidup di bumi. Orang-orang malang berada dalam kesengsaraan; mereka terlihat putus asa dan menderita tetapi yang terburuk adalah wajah –wajah yang terlihat putus harapan.

Tuhan tunjukan seorang wanita setengah usia yang kukenal sebelum mati. Dia alami kecekaan mobil awal tahun 2005. Saya terkejut melihatnya di Neraka sebab kami mengenalnya sebagai seorang yang takut akan Allah dan mencintai Allah. Tuhan katakan bahwa wanita ini cinta Tuhan dan Tuhan-pun mencintainya;Dia melayani Tuhan saat di bumi;Membimbing banyak orang pada Tuhan dan mengetahui Firman Tuhan dengan baik. kasih pada yang miskin dan membutuhkan; memberi dan menolong mereka dalam banyak hal.dia hamba Tuhan yang baik hampir disemua hal.

Perkataan itu sangat mengejutkanku dan saya bertanya pada Tuhan mengapa Dia membiarkan seseorang yang melayani Tuhan sangat baik berada dalam Neraka. Tuhan memandangku dan berkata bahwa wanita ini telah percaya tipuan si-jahat. Walaupun wanita ini tahu benar Firman Tuhan dengan baik, dia percaya tipuan setan bahwa ada dosa besar dan dosa kecil. Dia berpikir bahwa dosa ‘kecil’ tak akan membawanya ke neraka sebab, bagaimanapun juga, dia adalah orang kristen.

Tuhan melanjutkan, “Aku pergi menemui-nya beulang- kali dan mengatakan untuk berhenti melakukan apa yang dibuatnya namun banyak kali dia ber-alasan bahwa apa yang dilakukan-nya sangat kecil dan dia menyimpulkan peringatan-Ku sebagai perasaan bersalah-nya saja. Ada saat dia berhenti untuk sementara namun kemudian dia menguatkan dirinya sendiri bahwa peringatan itu bukan dari-Ku tetapi suara-nya sendiri sebab dosa itu terlalu kecil untuk mendukakan Roh Kudus.”

Saya bertanya pada Tuhan dosa apakah yang diperbuatnya dan Tuhan menjawab, “Wanita ini mempunyai seorang teman suster di RS Oshakati. Kapan saja wanita ini sakit, dia tak akan pergi ke RS dan membayar kartu RS sebagai praktek biasa; dia akan menelepon temannya dan mengatakan agar menyiapkan obat-obatnya dari bagian apotek. Temannya selalu merasa dipaksa melakukannya dan meminta wanita ini mengambil obat pada jam yang ditentukan. Pertama, dia putuskan menerimah tipuan si-jahat tentang dosa kecil dan besar dan menolak kebenaran-Ku;dia menyebabkan orang lain berdosa dan mencuri baginya namun yang lebih buruk dari semuanya, DIA MENDUKAKAN ROH KUDUs. Inilah yang menyebabkannya di Neraka.Tak perduli jika kau membawa milyaran jiwa pada Tuhan;ada kemungkinan masuk neraka sebab mendukakan Roh Kudus. Kamu tak harus perduli dengan keselamatan orang lain namun kamu harus berhati-hati tak lupa jiwamu sendiri. Peka-lah pada Roh Kudus setiap saat”Setelah itu Tuhan berkata kami harus kembali.

Banyak orang Kristen mendengar cerita ini mendapatinya sebagai persoalan. Mereka akan bertanya padaku, “bagaimana dengan jastifikasi, Rahmat dan Anugerah?” dan “Adakah kemungkinan kehilangan keselamatan itu setelah menerimanya?” “Bukankah hal itu sedikit keras?” “Dapatkah Allah sedemikian kasar?”

Baiklah,seperti ku-sampaikan dimana-mana dalam buku, Saya tak membawah ajaran teologia disini. Saya hanya menyampaikan padamu apa yang telah Tuhan tunjukan dan katakan pada-ku dan yang Tuhan ijinkan ku-alami. Tolong pelajari Alkitab anda bagi semua jawaban. Perhatikan fasal-fasal berikut ini dan adili dirimu sendiri.

“Tetapi aku melatih tubuhku dan menguasainya seluruhnya, supaya sesudah memberitakan Injil kepada orang lain, jangan aku sendiri di tolak”. (1Korintus 9:27)

“Jika demikian,apakah yang hendak kita katakan? Bolehkah kita bertekun dalam dosa, supaya semakin bertambah kasih karunia itu?sekali-kali tidak!bukankah kita telah mati bagi dosa, bagaimanakah kita masih dapat hidup didalamnya?(Roman 6:1-2)

“Hendaklah dosa jangan berkuasa lagi didalam tubuhmu yang fana,supaya kamu jangan lagi menuruti keinginannya.” (Roman 6:12)

“Sebab jika kita sengaja berbuat dosa sesudah memperoleh pengetahuan tentang kebenaran,maka tidak ada lagi korban untuk menghapus dosa kita, tetapi yang ada ialah kematian yang mengerikan akan penghakiman dan api yang dasyat yang akan menghapuskan semua orang durhaka.” (Ibrani 10:26 –27)

Dapatkah aku keneraka setelah melayani Tuhan dan membawa jiwa bagi-Nya? Engkau-lah hakimnya!

Ketidaktaatan

Hari senin 6 Maret 2006, saya terbangun oleh alarm jam 05H30. Saya berdoa dan sadari ada urapan kuat.Tubuhku lemah bergetar;gelombang listrik menjalariku.

Sore hari, saya ditempat tidur, kulihat cahaya terang mengisi kamarku. mungil, putih, bola-bola kecil, ukuran jepit rambut, benda kecil ini jatuh seperti hujan dan masuk dalam kulitku. Lalu, kulihat awan seperti kabut putih datang dari atas; juga mengisi kamar dan menembus kulitku. kulihat Yesus berjalan kearah-ku dalam awan. Dan duduk pada kursi-Nya disamping tempat tidur-ku. Saya tak tahu darimana asal kursi ini; selalu muncul pada saat Tuhan hendak duduk. Kursi yang indah terbuat dari emas tulen; bentuknya hampir sama seperti kursi pada umumnya tetapi ada sandaran belakang.Pada setiap kaki kursi ada bintang perak; bintang yang sama namun agak besar juga berada pada sandaran belakang.Dan roda bulat pada setiap kaki kursi.

Yesus menyalamiku dan mengulurkan tangan-Nya dan katakan bangun sebab waktu terburu habis. Dia menarik tangan-ku dan duduk disamping tempat tidur-ku.

Lalu Ia berkata padaku, “Victoria, mari kita berdoa.” Dia berdoa dalam bahasa yang tidak saya mengerti; yang ku-mengerti hanyalah ‘Amen’. Lalu Dia menanyakan padaku tentang apa yang ku-lihat saya berkata bahwa kulihat kelompok orang-orang yang pergi bekerja yang lainnya tiba di tempat kerjanya. Saya juga melihat hal yang sama bola-bola putih kecil jatuh pada mereka yang masuk pertama. Setelah kelompok pertama, kelompok kedua-pun muncul. Saat itu benda-benda ini berhenti.

Saya juga melihat kelompok lain, tiba di Gereja-Gereja pada Minggu pagi. Hujan bola-bola putih inipun turun pada saat orang-orang ini tiba lebih awal di halaman Gereja. Terus menerus berjatuhan dan kemudian berhenti. Yang terlambat tidak akan menemukan apapun.

Yesus bertanya jika saya mengerti arti penglihatan itu dan saya katakan bahwa saya tak mengerti. Lalu Dia menjelaskan: “Penglihatan-penglihatan ini artinya bahwa setiap tempat dimana engkau seharusnya berada pada waktu tertentu dan tahu jam berapa kau harus berada disana, Selalu ada malaikat-malaikat Tuhan membagi-bagikan berkat pada waktu tertentu. Jika engkau tiba tepat pada waktunya, engkau akan menerimah berkat namun jika engkau lambat, engkau akan kehilangan berkatmu pada hari itu sebab malaikat membagi-bagikan berkat hanya pada waktu tertentu. Victoria, Aku ingin memperingatkanmu sebab kau terlambat ketempat kerja dan lebih khusus terlambat pada jam-jam kebaktian.engkau harus tahu bahwa pada saat-saat itu kau terlambat tanpat alasan yang berlaku; engkau akan selamanya terlambat akan berkat-berkat pada hari-hari itu; mereka tak akan pernah kembali padamu lagi, hanya jika keterlambatanmu mempunyai alasan yang benar.”

Saat Tuhan mengatakannya saya berharap agar dapat menghilang dan memberikan-Nya beberapa alasan yang masuk akal untuk ketidak disiplinan-ku. Saya berkata bahwa kadang saya terlambat bangun tetapi Dia memandang-ku pada kedua mataku dan berkata bahwa saya berdusta dan bahwa saya memiliki kebiasaan buruk kembali tidur setelah bangun, menyerah pada keinginan tidur hanya ‘beberapa menit lagi’.

Setelah Tuhan Yesus memperingatkan-ku, Dia berkata, “Berdiri. Kita harus pergi. Waktu terburu habis ada yang harus kita kerjakan.”

Saat ini Tuhan membawaku ketempat dimana saya tidak pernah berada sebelumnya; Pertama kali kami berjalan dijalan itu. Kami tiba di Taman penuh bunga-bunga indah dan pepohonan hijau: tak ada sesuatupun didunia ini yang dapat dibandingkan dengan keindahan ini. Bunga-bunga sangat indah,berwarna cerah. Kami duduk pada kursi taman yang indah, yang terbuat dari emas murni dan dihiasi dengan bintang-bintang perak bercahaya.

Saat kami duduk, Tuhan menunjuk kedepan dan berkata, “Victoria, lihat, dapatkah engkau melihat kota itu?”Saat itu, Ku-lihat, kota besar bercahaya.Sangat indah diluar perkataan dan tiada duanya. Kota itu memiliki sebuah sebuah gerbang bercahaya dan pada gerbang itu ada seorang lelaki berumur yang duduk. Dia mempunyai, janggut panjang dan rambut putih. Ku-lihat lelaki ini sebelumnya, saat kutanya Yesus siapa orang itu,Dia katakan bahwa lelaki itu adalah Abraham, Bapa segala orang ber-Iman.

Ku-lihat banyak jalan dikota itu, yang juga diukir dengan emas. Ada bangunan-bangunan yang tinggi dan semuanya bercahaya seperti emas. Cahaya pantulan dari kota itu sungguh sangat tak terbilang.

Yesus menoleh pada-ku dan berkata, “Apakah pendapatmu tentang kota itu?”

Ku-jawab,sangat indah dan mau kesana.Yesus berkata:“Aku akan membawa-mu kesana jika engkau patuh terus menerus sebab disitu juga rumah-mu akan berada. tetaplah patuh–sebab jika tak patuh,Victoria, burung gagak akan mengisi rumah-mu. Rumah-mu akan menjadi kediaman burung hantu dan tempat bermain hantu-hantu. Bagaimanapun juga, jangan takut, sebab Aku menyertai-mu.Hanya patuh-lah. Sebab siapa yang tak patuh,rumahnya akan menjadi tempat burung gagak terbang;menjadi sebuah tempat tinggal burung hantu dan tempat bermain hantu-hantu.”

Yesus Kristus nyata dan Ia mencintai kita dengan Cinta-Nya yang tak terbilang, Keinginan hati-Nya yang terbesar ialah agar kita memilih hidup yang kekal bersama Nya. Hati-Nya pedih bagi mereka yang mati dan masuk Neraka sebab mereka lebih memilih mati dan menolak tawaran keselamatan yang Ia tawarkan pada mereka.

Siapapun engkau Kristen yang di-lahirkan kembali atau tidak, tolong ingat satu hal: Waktu sedang terburu habis.

Senin, 14 Juli 2008

The Weekend

 
So much happened this weekend, that I do not know where to start. So, I suppose I will recount to you, dear reader, the events in order.
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Several of my readers witnessed this first event. My small group went to see Joe Jordan on Friday night. He is called the minister of joy. This is because people have a tendency to get drunk in the Spirit when he is around. I have seen him several times before and it is true, people do get drunk in the Spirit when he is around.

He always starts out with a little sermonette before he starts a healing line. I do not know why, but before he was even finished with the sermonette, I felt the Spirit of God fall on me. There I was minding my own business and wham, I started to smile. I covered my mouth not wanting Joe Jordan to see me beginning to laugh. I know that if he sees this he will come to you, lay hands on you and make it worse. So, I am sitting there wanting to laugh, but being very much in control, but beginning to feel a bit drunk.

Then, a friend, sitting in back of me, leans over and asks me how I am feeling. I turned and looked at her and busted up laughing. That did it. I was over come with joy and try as I might, I could no longer stifle my laugh nor joy. So, here comes Joe Jordan. I saw him coming and wanted him to go away, but, NO, he laid hands on me and a friend in front of me. I lost it. I don't remember much for a while. I saw my brother, fall to the ground while being prayed over for healing and I remember climbing over a friend and my brother to talk to another friend in the middle of the service. Wow!!! Did I feel good. I wanted to play like a little child, but there was no one to play with.
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There was a woman there who started laughing and I believe she must have laughed for 30 minutes. She crawled on the floor and was just having a great time. Every once in a while I would feel calm and then get hit again and bust up laughing. I needed that and I thank God that it happened for I now feel refreshed. It was a supernatural event that God granted me. Thank you God.
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The next day, I was suppose to go to a auction with my daughter. That did not happen. I got a call from her that was horrific. Her pit bull dogs had gone crazy in the night and killed 8 of her animals, including my angora goat, who was pregnant. So, I spent Saturday morning dragging dead animals across a field for burial. The three baby pigs that where killed where butchered and the dogs are now gone. It was a brutal massacre. My daughter was so upset and I do not blame her. Other animals where harmed, but looked like they would recover. I found myself praying for the children, but they are such farm kids that they seemed to be little affected by the event. It was carnage. If you would like to leave a word of encouragement for my daughter you can click here.

Sunday night, I was asked to prophesy over a group of men graduating from a Purpose class. One of the men was startling because of the anointing that the Lord has put on him. It was so strong that I wanted to dance, or jump or, I don't know, it was just that the energy of the Lord coming forth from him was so strong that I could not stand still.

He is young, 22 years of age. He will grow bold in the Spirit. The words that will come from his mouth will be truth and light. His past will serve him well in his ministry to drug addicted people. There was so much to say to him but, not enough time. It was a pleasure to be in his presence. I asked him if he had ever been filled with the Holy Spirit. He said "no". I laid hands on him and the Spirit of God came. He was slain in the Spirit and filled with the power of God.
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After the graduation was over, one of the men that I mentor, came to me with words for the young man. I had him deliver the words and then was asked if I would mentor the young boy who had just been prophesied over. Of course I accepted. It will be wonderful to watch this young man grow.

What a weekend. Seeing, hearing and feeling God. It was wonderful. But, then on the other end, seeing the evil of life. The evil was sandwiched in between God and I am grateful for that. My mind does not have to stay with the pictures of the carnage at my daughters farm. Instead, my mind is focused on the glory of God. The future of His children and His plans. Praise be to God almighty. In the mist of all things man made and evil He reigns.

Kamis, 10 Juli 2008

The Winds of Change are Upon the Chruch

 
This prophesy was set to me yesterday. I thought you, my dear reader, would like to read it.


Spoken By Don Franklin


Welcome to the Great Masquerade of God, saith the Lord; welcome to the Great Ball of God, for you have come into this thing one way but you will go back another, saith God. You have been given angelic host, angelic messengers; you have been given mantles and anointings that you even know not of. In the coming days they will begin to flow.

I am bringing interconnections right now with those that have been hidden behind the scenes for years whom I have developed and I am bringing forth. John the Baptist is going to come out of the wilderness screaming at the Church, screaming at the Church, screaming at the Church, saith the Lord. There�s coming a prophetic mantle across the nations where he comes up out of the wilderness and he begins to minister. After three hundred years of silence John will come forth to speak in the coming days.

There will be changes, changes. The winds of change are upon the Church and there�s nothing you can do to stop this. All you can do is begin to flow with it now. Change, change, change is upon the Church worldwide. I�m bringing it back into the End-time Church that I have so long desired. You have no idea how the heart of God desires to see the signs, the wonders, the miracles.
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I will burn the dross out of the body of Christ; I will burn out the false prophets; I will burn out the false apostles. I will burn out those who will merchandize my people. They will not be able to stand the refiners fire in the coming days. I will totally burn out those who will merchandize and use my flock, and I will raise up the true apostolic heart, the true prophetic heart � those that will lay their lives down for the sheep.

You are the beginning founding stones for this movement, saith God. It has begun here in this house, in this church, in this city and it is traveling now across the nations, across the world. You cannot stop this; all you can do is begin to flow with it. Rejoice, for the day that you have been looking for has dawned; it has come. Welcome to the kingdom of God. Welcome to the change that is coming upon America.

I�m calling for kingdom connections worldwide. A transfer of wealth has begun; a transfer of wealth has begun; I will pull it out of the hands that have it and I will give it to those who don�t. Even those ministries that have disobeyed me and consumed upon their own lust, I am going to begin to pull it out of them. I�m going to begin to take their support away; I�m going to begin to transfer it to men and women who will do what I want done with the money. I�m going to cut the legs out from some major ministries; you�re going to watch them fall in the coming days. They�re coming down, down, down, saith the Lord, and you are going up, up, up - not only in the realm of the spirit but the realm of the natural.

There is going to be a new walk, a new countenance come upon you. You�re going to walk like men of God; you�re going to talk like men of God; you�re going to walk like ambassadors of my kingdom. People are not going to recognize you in the coming days.

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Gone are the robes of the ordinary and here come the robes of the ambassadors of the kingdom of God. Here come the mantles of the delegates of the U.N. You�re going to be men of prominence, men of respect, men of power. Gone will be the bumbling fool and here come the anointed diplomats of God. You watch and see, saith the Lord; you watch and see; you watch and see, saith the Lord.

You do not even believe what you�re hearing now, but you will when it happens, and you will look back and you will say, surely that was the Word of the Lord; surely that was the Word of the Lord.

Arguing With God

 
Is it ok to argue with God? I sure hope so, because I've been arguing with Him for a long time.

I remember the first time I tried to get out of something. I was working with the severely mentally ill in the community. I'd taken one to see his doctor. Sitting in this crowded waiting room, I saw a woman seating in front of me. Soon as I saw her, I heard God say, "Go tell her I love her." Now, I was not quite as confident as I am now. So my first reaction was, "I don't think so."

I heard Him again. "Go tell her I love her." "I don't know her, I don't want to.." Then in a very strong & forceful voice, God said, "GO TELL HER I LOVE HER!" Up I went.

I was quite timid about going to her. She had her body turned to the side so you could not see her face & she was hunched over. I wasn't real fast about getting there, hoping that her name would be called to see the doctor. I sat down beside her & touched her hand. She turned to look at me with swollen red eyes. The tears were stilling flowing down her face.

I said, "I don't know you, but, God said to tell you He loves you." She gasp & then smiled. "I am a Christian & I was thinking about killing myself. I have felt so alone." I was rather dumb struck at this point. Still a baby in Christ, my wisdom & revelation were in short supply. She thanked me & said that she would be alright now.

A prophet told me not long ago, that God likes it that I argue with Him. This would be a good thing for me, because, I still argue with Him. God has a sense of humor, I've seen it at work. Maybe, He enjoys watching me squirm for a bit. He knows he is going to win. My arguing with the Creator of the Universe is rather futile. He always wins.

My biggest argument has been over my future. He showed me a bit of it & I recoiled. What I saw was not anything I would want in my life. Why would He show me His plan for me, knowing that I would run from it. I believe it was to prepare me & for me to come into a place of acceptance. I'm still running a bit. Satan comes to me & tries to get me to believe that I have made these things up in my head. But, I know the voice of God & I know what I saw in the vision. It would be easier for me to fallen into the trap the Satan continues to try on me, Much easier than following the plans God has laid out for me. But, I will keep my eyes were they belong, catch every thought to the obedience of God & move toward that goal.

Rabu, 09 Juli 2008

Hope

 

I met with a woman yesterday, in an emergency counseling session. A friend brought her to me, but our pastor had told them both to seek me out. She was going through with drawls from alcohol and had the shakes bad. She sat in my rocking chair, curled up in a ball.

When asked if she was a Christian, her response was "I don't know."

Hard for me to do Christian counseling with someone who is not a Christian. But, on further questioning I found that she does believe that Jesus Christ is the risen Savior, she has just never been churched. She has no idea what the Bible says and no idea about spiritual things.

I had to watch my tongue around her. Wanting to bring in the supernatural. I thought it would scare her off. But, it was hard and I slipped now and then. She is a woman driven by generational curses. She calms the demonic by drinking. The thoughts she hears are suicidal.
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Knowing that Jesus is the risen Savior is just not enough and I needed to teach her enough so that she could make it through the week. So, much to know and so little time.

So, I shared with her that Christianity was not about a group of people. I told her about Enoch and his relationship with God. That this was Christianity. That her relationship with God would be one that is intimacy with God. One on One. This surprised her, but she seemed to understand.

I told her to personalize the Bible and to read the book of John. This she did not understand, so I read a bit of Psalms 91, using her name where it read "I". She like that a lot, but had trouble even understanding the NIV.

I reached for a Bible translation called "The Answer". I, again, read Psalms 91 and she understood. So, I gave her my bible.
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Supernaturally, she is covered in demons. They hover over her with an assignment to kill her. When I look at them, it actually looks like one is chewing on her brain. Knawing away her life. God has protected her from death and I prayed more protection over her. Her healing will take time. She is not versed or submerged in the Word of God. She is not spiritual. Does not understand the supernatural. I can not just jump into an inner healing nor a deliverance. She needs to believe. But, she found hope.

I talked to her about her thought life and catching every thought to the obedience of God. Told her to read Psalms 91 and the Book of John. She called me last night to ask some questions and told me she had read Psalms and had personalized it. Her with drawls were bad, but she was hanging in there. I advised her to see her doctor today to get some help with the with drawls.

Where will this end up. I do not know, but I, like her, have hope. She believes in miracles and I told her that she will be a miracle. I pray that the things I said to her hold her in hope. She is in torment and that always breaks my heart. I can not wait to see those demons gone and freedom brought to this child of God.

Selasa, 08 Juli 2008

Virginia

 

Her name is Virginia. She takes walks in the evening. She is 81 years of age, but looks, at the most 60. On her walks, she use to see my mother sitting on the porch and come up and talk to her. Yesterday, she came up to talk to me.

She ask me, "is your mother gone?"

We spoke of my mother and her death. She was sorry. Virginia is a kind woman. Her heart is always wide open and her spirit is sweet.

Once, she decided to take my mother for a walk. I told her that this may not work out. But, Virginia was determined that my mother needed exercise. So, off they went. They made it one house down from mine and then they turned around and came back. Virginia's comment. "We'll go again next time." She would sit for hours with my mother.

So, yesterday, we sat and talked. It was nice. Her concern and love radiated from her. She shared about her life and children. I was relaxed and enjoying the conversation.

Then she asked if I knew Valerie down around the corner. "Yes, I know her". "Well, she is not home and I have this magazine for her. Do you want it?" She asked.
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I looked at the magazine in her hand and then looked up to her face. "Yes. I am a Jehovah Witness." She said. I was stumped. Never would I have expected this one. "Will you read it if I leave it with you?" She asked.

My thoughts were, be totally honest with her. "No, Virginia. I will not read it." I told her. "I do not believe the way you do."

"Well you know, most of us Jehovah Witness come from other churches." She replied. I took this as I could possibly be converted. "Well, I'm charismatic and I would suppose that most of us come from other domination's." I said. She agreed.

I then told her that I was ordained and a Christian counselor and the conversation about religion stopped.

When she left she reached over and hugged me. I accepted the hug knowing that she truly meant it. I watched her walk away with dread and disappointment.
And then the questions came.
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Does Virginia walk so that she can convert? Is this her way of going house to house. She sees you on your front porch and makes friends with you and then starts the conversion conversation. WOW!!! What a great technique.

Very few Christians go door to door witnessing any more. What a shame. We seems to keep to ourselves fearing backlash from people. Not wanting to step on toes or insult others we keep our religion to ourselves.

I'm disappointed in where Virginia is at, but admire her courage and plans. I might just try to take a walk tonight and meet some new neighbors.

Senin, 07 Juli 2008

Praise Be to God

 

Remember this:

"I've got the joy, joy, joy, joy,

down in my heart.

Where?

Down in my heart.

Where?

Down in my heart."

Well, that is my song today. I took myself through the soul and spirit tie breaking that you read on my last post and God answered that prayer.

"I feel good.

You knew that I would.

I feel good.

You knew that I would.

So Good, So Good.

I found you."
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That was an old song. I certainly have songs on my heart today. God has delivered me from the dark. I praise him for deliverance. He is the great I AM. The Alpha and the Omega. My Father.

When I sit back this week, I can see what God did for me the last two weeks. How his plan for my redemption was laid out and I walked it till I was healed. I fell right into His plans without even looking for His plan. I was led by His power and mercy till I found my healing. Praise be to God.

Thank you for all your prayers, my brothers and sisters in Christ. Your prayers were heard and I am extremely grateful. You lifted me up on high and God led me out of the darkness. Your love heals.
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I have energy again and hope. I am focused and I hope reliable. I look forward and not backwards. I see the light again and not the dark. I feel healthy and not sick. I pray and do not weep. God is good.

So, my future is bright because of Him. My hope lies in Him and my focus is on Him.

Thank you God.